Ever had a ride where you just gotta hang on and wait for the bottom? That’s what life’s been like for the past couple of weeks. I can’t ever tell if I’m at the bottom until I’ve been coming back up the other side for awhile. It’s a question of, “How low can you go?”
Remember being told that God will never give you more than you can handle? I think that means, “And still be alive to talk about it.”
My husband has been out of town on a job for over two weeks. He’s just gotten home and will be off again for a similar length and we will do this for three months. Thankfully I have my two grown boys still home and I can get a small bit of relief from my younger three…I still can’t leave them home alone and the oldest of the younger ones is a boy 14 and 1/2 years old. My girls are twin 12 year olds and are no where near mature enough either.
The rollercoaster ride began for me back when I hooked up with my husband 30 years ago. There have been many humps, bumps, and stomach trashing moments during that time, but none bigger than the SheiKra event of 7 and 1/2 years ago when we adopted our three youngest from Russia. O…….M…….G!
I know things could have been far worse with them, but my life has been hellacious ever since. My poor old body has felt the strain and I overeat constantly. Throughout each day of homeschooling and personality wrestling that goes on, I will find myself either heading for the computer or for the fridge to satiate my need to refill.
Thankfully my sister brought Reiki to me a few years back. It is what saved my life. Even belonging to a church and participating as an elder and membership chairperson and in whatever other slot needed filling didn’t FILL me up. I was being sucked dry and knew there was a bigger picture of our creative universe than I was finding in my religion. So, by becoming familiar with the loving energy and learning to share it with others, I found myself filling up a little more each day. This is how I found God within me. This is how I hang on each day. I adore working with the energy and channeling it to others during the distance healing sessions I do in the evenings. I get filled at the same time. And it’s so much better than overeating!
There hasn’t been anything too heavy yet, even though I’ve felt there has been on many occasions. The ride hasn’t thrown me off track and I know there is always an up side coming; every rollercoaster ride has them. Hear me scream! Aaaeeeeeeeeeee!
